Her Insecurities Started To Creep In
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“There must be some other way. I believe Long Moyan and the rest of them are not the only ones who came from heaven. There must be more. I am sure they know things!” Gu Xijiu clenched her fist confidently.
Di Fuyi pulled her close at the waist and nodded. “Hmm, I will keep on looking.” He chose to make her look at the bright side instead of crushing her hope.
It had been eights days since her return to his side. For the last couple of days, she had been spending all of her time with him. She did not even have enough sleep. Whenever he opened his eyes, he would definitely see a pair of big, bright eyes staring back at him cautiously, as she was afraid that he would suddenly pass away.
For a few days, she did not sleep well at all. Certainly, she was aware of that, too. She would pretend to be asleep just before he opened his eyes.
Di Fuyi could obviously tell the difference between sleeping and pretending to be asleep. Her breathing, heart rate, and pulse were all different when she was awake. She was lying so closely in his arms, so he could definitely feel the difference. She could not hide the truth from him.
He knew it very well that she was scared to lose him.
Like a man who had been sentenced to death, everyone else would surely be worried as he slowly approached the end of his life. She was reluctant to let him go. Her insecurities started to creep in.
However, Di Fuyi knew her well. He was well aware that she was trying very hard to help him stay. She was also worried about him. She did not want to become another weight on his mind, so she continued to laugh and joke with him like she was fine. She was still a quick learner like her usual self whenever new opportunities arose. But, when she was not with him, she would fall into a constant state of anxiety, just like the four messengers.
With each passing day, she grew thinner. Though, she cherished every moment when they were together and desperately wished time could just stop for them.
Di Fuyi knew how bad she felt, but there was nothing he could do about it. He had to give her some hope, something for her to look forward to, so she would not break down while the time ticked by.
His heart ached for her. He felt the pain. It was as if his heart had just been punched. He could only hug her tightly in his arms. He paid attention to Gu Xijiu’s dark circles which had nowhere to hide. He planted a gentle kiss on her nose and said, “Tomorrow is our wedding day. You should rest. I am hoping for a very beautiful bride.”
While he talked, he also pressed onto her acupuncture point that could help her fall asleep. He even sang some lullabies.
As usual, Gu Xijiu hugged him and rubbed her cheek against his skin, like a clingy kitten in pursuit of his attention. “Fuyi, I have lost interest in the wedding. I want to visit Yunqing Province tomorrow. Mengxia once told me about a strange man who would run around frantically in the winter with only his underwear. He claimed to have met people from heaven.”
Di Fuyi was speechless. He knocked her forehead gently and answered, “The man is mad, silly. I have been looking forward to our wedding for so long. Don’t you dare run away!”
Gu Xijiu rubbed her forehead and protested. “People laugh at him for his madness, but maybe that is because they do not see the world the way he does. Some men like to be mysterious; maybe he is telling the truth.”
She would hold onto every chance that she found, regardless of how slight it seemed. She had to try, even when she knew it was hopeless.
Di Fuyi kissed her again. “You seem energetic.” He then proceeded to thoroughly make love to her. They had a very crazy time and tried everything that they could do.
Finally, she gave up on the idea of skipping the wedding to visit the madman. Slowly, she fell deeply asleep in his arms.
Like all traditions, a couple should not be living together before they were officially married, but Gu Xijiu insisted on breaking the conventions and moved into the residence of Celestial Master Zuo.