Today is mothers day’s here in the US. Happy Mother’s Day to all you beautiful moms out there.
“A mother’s love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dates all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path.” — Agatha Christie”
Without further ado…. we continue with our story….
The Past – YanMingXiu POV 1
As mentioned the story’s lead is ZhouXiang but the author later wrote two chapters from YanMinXiu’s point of view. We are starting with him first.
In fact, a few months ago, he already felt that his feelings for ZhouXiang were a bit different. But at that time, he didn’t care because ZhouXiang was the first person he allowed to enter his life and was even the person he lived with. The difference with ZhouXiang, setting him apart from others, should be entirely because ZhouXiang is very much similar to WangYuDong.
When WangYuDong and his sister got engaged, he had already planned to give up. Pursuing with this kind of feeling knowing that it is hopeless is obviously not worth it. Moreover, being persistent could ultimately hurt his sister. This kind of matter, he should not stubbornly persevere. Adding on, when ZhouXiang is by his side, he no longer felt empty. In fact, he felt content.
At this time, he decided that he could consider accepting ZhouXiang.
What he had not thought of was that ZhouXiang would find out about everything. Not only that, his reaction to it was extreme. In fact, toward the end, he must sacrifice ZhouXiang for WangYuDong’s benefit, or vice versa. When WangYuDong personally opened his mouth to ask him, he really had no reason to refuse. He had his reasons. First, if WangYuDong got this role, his added value is ten folds and ZhouXiang’s added value is one hundred. However, if he lost this role, at most ZhouXiang’s loss is ten, but for WangYuDong, it is a thousand. Secondly, he could give ZhouXiang a better role, paving the way for a better and smoother journey in his career. Finally, and most importantly, he will not let his person be in the same movie with this surname Lan. He hated for other people to look to at his things, not to mentioned lust after it.
In his opinion, he could give ZhouXiang a lot of things that he (ZhouXiang) needed, such as good roles, a great environment and what ZhouXiang especially wanted most – his affections toward him. ZhouXiang likes him so much. He (ZhouXiang) should gladly accept all these, so he didn’t spend too much time considering before making a decision that would ultimately make him regret his entire life.
The two days that he kept ZhouXiang under house arrest, he contacted a director, intending on giving ZhouXiang a better role than WangYuDong’s as compensation to him. He is not a person who is good at expressing his feelings. He only thought that by using this method, ZhouXiang would feel his importance in his (YanMingXiu’s) heart. It never occurred to him that ZhouXiang would not be grateful. Not only did he not accept, he also used the cruelest way to punish him for everything that he had done wrong.
When ZhouXiang left his line of sight, using the excuse to go to the bathroom, it never occurred even in his dreams that this would be the last time he would ever see this man again in his life. From now on, he would never have the slightest chance to see this gentle and tolerant smile on this face once again.
After ZhouXiang used the excuse and left, he was in no hurry to chase after him. He wanted to give ZhouXiang time to calm down for a few days. But he didn’t expect ZhouXiang to turn off his phone completely and his whereabouts completely unknown.
On the first day, the second day, and even the third day, he could still bear it. But after that, he could no longer stand it anymore. He reached out to a contact and forced CaiWei to reveal the truth. Finally, he found that ZhouXiang had taken on a documentary filming job and had entered the XiWan Mountain.
He felt heavyhearted. The phone signal in the mountains is not good. There is no way for him to get connected to ZhouXiang. It may be a few months before ZhouXiang would be able to come out.
Since the two met, they have never been separated for this long. Thinking that it might not be possible to see ZhouXiang for two to three months, adding on, their separation was under extremely unpleasant circumstances, he felt very unsettled. After a few days, this feeling became painfully insufferable.
When he got home, he couldn’t see ZhouXiang, couldn’t eat the foods made by ZhouXiang, and couldn’t hold ZhouXiang to sleep at night. These things that he had never been mindful before, after it had completely disappeared, were actually so unbearable.
For the first time, he realized that he needed someone by his side, and that person is not WangYuDong, not anyone else, but is ZhouXiang. When he came to this realize this point, he even wanted to go search for ZhouXiang in the mountains.
With this thought, he almost blew up calling ZhouXiang’s phone. Finally, he was able to get connected to ZhouXiang but the signal was really poor. Adding on, the content of their conversation was extremely unpleasant, becoming even more intense.
He began to delegate all his work at hand and got in touch with a crew member to assist in taking him to the mountains, unbeknownst to ZhouXiang.
He needed to see ZhouXiang.
His most intensive thought at this time is to shove ZhouXiang beneath him and ruthlessly fuck him. He wanted ZhouXiang to know who the master of this relationship is. He will not allow ZhouXiang to leave him. He also needed to tell ZhouXiang that he wants to start over, to seriously start over with him.
He missed ZhouXiang immensely. He wanted to immediately appear by ZhouXiang’s side.
But before he could leave, he received the nightmarish news.
ZhouXiang had an accident in the mountains.
It is difficult for him to recall the pain he felt when he received the call. He began to disbelieve every words spoken by the other party, the words filtering through his ears sounded gibberish. He felt that the other party is spitting out nonsense.
ZhouXiang could not be in an accident. What rainstorm? What mudslide? He absolutely does not believe it.
He thought about the many possible images when he and ZhouXiang would meet again, but it definitely did not include this.
At that time, he still hasn’t panic because ZhouXiang was only missing. At the same time, there were also a few people missing. They are very likely trapped somewhere and will definitely be found.
He couldn’t wait to delegate all his work at hand, and immediately flew directly to Guangxi, entering the mountains as fast as he could. His only thought at the time was that he needed to find ZhouXiang first, to make sure he is safe.
It had never occurred to him that ZhouXiang would really disappear completely.
He’d never dared to think that…
Time passed day by day. On the first day and the second day, he was still able to remain calm. But when the rescue team found a body of a crew member on the third day, he was already on the verge of collapse.
Everyone knew that the longer the search and rescue time drags, the less likely the victim would be rescued.
Looking at the appalling deformed corpse and thinking that ZhouXiang might have become like this, he went insane. It’s likely that he didn’t eat for a few days, likely due to the high degree of mental stress, and likely his fear and hopelessness … all of it led to the gradual erosion of his heart, he lost consciousness.
When he woke up again, his brother appeared. Time has passed and it was the fifth day.
The fifth day of ZhouXiang’s disappearance.
The rescue team has begun to wrap up their work. They believe that ZhouXiang had likely perished in an unknown corner somewhere in the mountains. After all, the mountain area is an unimaginable vast area. To find a person is easier said than done.
His feeling at the time was that the whole world had completely shattered before his eyes. He forgot who he was, who was around him, and what was around him. Everything became a non-essential bubble. Only his determination to find ZhouXiang is real.
He did not believe it. He did not believe that ZhouXiang is dead. He felt that ZhouXiang is still alive. He can’t tell why. His older brother thought that he is crazy, but he really felt that ZhouXiang must be alive, must be…
He forced the rescue team to search for an entire month, searching the scope of a radius of ten kilometers but still came up with nothing. He even wanted to expand the search.
His older brother yelled at him and said that he is wasting resources, said that he is insane, said that he had gone crazy.
But he didn’t care at all. If ZhouXiang’s deformed body is really in front of him, he will really go crazy. But he must have a conclusion; otherwise he won’t be able to move on.
However, God bestowed upon him the most cruel and hopeless conclusion —- and that is uncertainty between life and death.
End of Chapter